There are many things that don’t make sense to me. Most of them are things I see as contradictory, especially those things that define me.

For example, list-making.

I’m one of the most disorganized people you’ll ever meet. I’m as likely to finish a story as I am to finish a cup of coffee. If I’m not at work, I tend to live in a constant state of flux, of disarray. I haven’t had a “real” job in over two years now, so everything’s just been building up around me. Just imagine Pig-Pen, but instead of being surrounded by a dust cloud, he’s enveloped by an equally thick cloud of half-finished sentences, self-doubt and unfolded laundry. That’s pretty much how I live at the moment.

I love making lists, though. They give me this sense of order, and in some ways I feel like I know myself a little bit better when I write them out. What do I need to do? Where do I need to go? Because of that, the Day Zero Project appealed to me.

I’m slow to internet fads sometimes, although I’m loath to call this one due to its nature. Otherwise known as 101 Things in 1001 Days, the site is maintained by Michael Green, who built the site after beginning his own (successful) bucket list. Rather than use 43 Things, which is a lot more community-based, I wanted something that gave me a set date and felt more personal. Since one of the things on my list is to write one blog post per week, I figured I would start out with this.

Hopefully something like this will get me to become more active — not just physically, but mentally. Off I go!

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