In the midst of all the upheaval in my life, I’m still determined to make some positive changes. I can’t let myself slide back into where I once was — this growth is too important to me to let myself languish in the shadows.
So yeah! This is after 3.5 miles of walking/jogging/walking. When I was about 2.5 miles in, I thought about calling Nick and having him pick me up (because I am admittedly a weak-willed and lazy person when it comes to exercise), but I hit some sort of floaty place and was able to make the last leg easily. The route I took was rather hilly, so my legs took quite the beating, but I’m only moderately unhealthy versus supremely unhealthy, so I can manage it.
Speaking of being moderately unhealthy, I hit a new low this morning! I stepped on the bathroom scale before heading out for class, and when I noticed that my weight was significantly lower with my clothes on, I shut the door and disrobed as quickly as I could. I’ve only got 13.5 pounds to go until I hit my goal! I can’t believe it — usually I lose weight when I’m severely stressed, but I’ve been only moderately stressed of late so I’m quite surprised by these recent developments.
I’m taking my 101 Things to Do list quite seriously. While I did break and ended up getting coffee two days in a row, for the most part I’ve cut down on the things that are bad for me. I’ve only had two cigarettes since I got back from Austin (which is where I decided to kick smoking altogether), and the half-can of Diet Coke I had (the first caffeinated soda I’ve had this year) was part of the one drink I’ve had since I’ve returned as well. I don’t plan on completely kicking alcohol, but I do want to dial that back down. As far as smoking is concerned, I could see myself stepping outside with someone every now and then, but I just don’t think I have it in me anymore.
Also, Nat Shermans are a bit pricey for me, and now I have things I want to save up for. At least one more trip this year, another pair of pants, this guy… I’ve got to pinch my pennies, not smoke them away. I miss it, yes, especially when I’m super-stressed. However, I’m trying not to let myself buy even one pack, because I’m afraid I’ll let it snowball.
I’m writing more, reading more, and tonight, I’ll be heading out to Schoolhouse Rock Live!, which should be a lot of fun. Being social — now that’s the biggest step of all, I’d argue. However, I can do this… especially since I’ve already bought my ticket.
No, but really. I can do this.